And the beat goes on...

here i am at home..once again. ::sigh:: i wanted to go to school today. my mom thinks i am at school. she made my lunch and had my note and everything. well, she was pretty pissed about me not going to school yesterday and staying online. ok, tell me she isn't wierd. she thinks i am getting pink eye from staring at the computer screen 24/7...how gay is that?!! geez. we got into an argument last nite and so i just stayed at jen's house. talked to mel for a while last nite too. hahaha..love you girly! gosh...oh well. i was debating whether i should go to school or not. i was like, go to school and contaminate everyone? or stay at home and sleep? i was like, contaminate everyone! i mean, i am sick of being home. i have been home since friday, this whole weekend, yesterday, and now today. my stepdad was like, you're not going to school? me: no...my eye. :him: yeah. rest. and he left with my stepbro! damn. i am scurrd now. my mom is gonna be hella pissed! :/ whatever. she isn't the one with pink eye. hmm...

i woke up this morning and looked at my fone and it said, Message Received. so i open it up and it is from ika. hmm...you HAVE to call me girly girl! you better explain everything! haha.

grrrr...i hate home. home bad! home boring. :( man oh man. life is sucking rite now. like major! i have so much shit to do..so much to study for. and i am starting to lose my social life. well, not really, but i can see myself slowly excluding myself and being by myself. i dunno. i am pretty gay. i have so much on my mind and i know if i tell people, they wouldn't understand it. no one does. no one goes throught the fkd up shit i go through. oh well. i have started to pray more and i am gonna start committing myself to God and prayer. i am not gonna be a total hermit and pray 24/7, but i feel i have been neglecting God. how can we ignore the person that has blessed us with the life we have? the friends and family we share? the love and cherished memories we have? whenever i "talk to Him," i feel like so much has been lifted off my shoulders. i feel as if he has taken my burdens and cast them away. but sometimes i think, why me?! and why does he make me go through this? but i guess it is for the better. though i may not understand it now, i am sure i will in the years to come. whoa! anyways...going to rest now..bye bye!!

haha...i wrote that at like 7:44 after i wrote ms. woodman an e-mail. well, it is like 11:10 now. haha. my aol account isn't working..?! yeah. so whatever. god damn e-mail on't work. and i am on jen's sn now. damn shiet. oh wells. hmm..at 7:45, watched some news..tried to in some britney tix..fone lies were busy! :/ called miguel at 8:00 thinking he would be in class...he answered and was on his way to school! LoL. we talked for a couple of minutes. then i watched some more news..[[my mom just called..she got mad.. :( she can be such a bitch!!! grrrr...]]watched where the heart is...love that movie. called mig again at 10:30 but he answered again. he was getting his books. haha. talked for a while cuz it was his break. said hi to justine..finished the movie..and going to go before my mom bitches some more..ok..

Posted by Camille on Tuesday, May 21 at 11:19 AM | Permalink