And the beat goes on...

. just got off the phone with paolo...

. anyway, so i didnt get to do anything today.. didnt get to hang out with jason/april. =/ next week k??

. so i cleaned and stuff.. then i took an hour nap. then damien woke me up and then we prepared dinner. he cooked steak. i washed the salad and picked out the bad lettuce cuz my sister made me! then we set the table.. all that stuff. then my ate and her friend, marisol, came. we had dinner and talked. then we watched britney's concert from miami..

. it was like 8 and heather called. so i called back and i talked to bren.. they said they were gonna come get me and i got off the phone and i was crying! no joke. i was supposed to go to burbank today, but no ride.. so i was so excited that i was gonna leave the house and DO SOMETHING! so i got ready and around 8:30, heather, bren, and willy came to pick me up. we headed to carson or something.. to Mulligan's. we got tickets to ride the go-karts.. then we waited in line and then it was our turn! it was so fun.. haha. then we went to the arcade and heather and i got to talk.. it was so fun! then we raced.. then bren and i played air hockey.. and then we left. we picked up his mommy.. took her home. hung out a little there.. and being the hungry animals we are.. we decided to go to IHOP. willy said there was one on pch, but it was closed.. so we went to del amo and it was open! we got our pancakes and stuff and we all talked and had a good time. so many laughs. =) then we left.. went back to bren's. said hi to kuya brian.. hung out and watched tv for a little.. my phone died too! =( then around 1:20 bren took me home.. good talk on the ride home. came here.. took the cd's.. left. went online... watched tv.. then paolo called and i talked to him. made some cd's.. and that was all.. i had a lot of fun today!
- thank you bnut, heather, and willy.. for paying for my ticket and dinner/breakfast. i love you guys!!

. so paolo called me while we were out.. and he was gonna pick me up and take me back to matt's for david's birthday party.. but it was too late. i felt bad.. =/ rachel and bg were there too!! next time guys!

. now i am online.. bored. haha. i cant sleep!! slow jams are the best.. hopefully i get a ride to burbank tomorrow!! =x anyway, goodnight everybody.

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` I LOVE APRIL MC FARLAND!!! =) forever and ever..

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taken from wong's xanga.. thanks!!

-FULL name: Camille Alexis G.. Magcalas
-Where do you live: Los Angeles
-Birthdate: 01.26.87
-Height: 5'1 ??
-Weight: 105
-Shoe size: 5
-Right or lefty: Right

*What....*
-What do you think of the way you look?: BLAH
-What do you think about life after death?: I hope it's... peaceful.
-What do you think about love?: Everyone should be in love.
-What do you think about fate?: Fate is unpredictable and you cant escape it.
-What do you think about your self?: I think I am an OK person but I have made so many mistakes that I wish I could take back, but I did learn from all of it..
-What are you scared of?: Bugs, rodents, and loneliness..
-What are your parents names?: Chito & Josephine

*The Dream Side of You*
-Do you dream a lot at night?: Of course!
-Do you dream in black and white, or color?: Both...
-Do you remember any of your dreams?: Most of the time
-Where is your dream make out spot?: ???? Haven't been there yet
-What is your dream job?: Anything that involves reaching out to the needy and of course, CHILDREN!
-Do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul?: Not really.

*Do you...*
-Do you write in a journal or diary?: THIS BLOG!
-Do you keep an organizer?: No
-Do you believe in love at first sight?: Well, I believe you can see someone at first sight and think you can love them, but I dont know about love AT first sight.. INFATUATION at first sight, I believe.
-Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: Yes
-Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)?: Yes
-Do you believe in yourself?: Sometimes.. =/
-Do you cry easily?: haha.. Everyone knows I am the BIGGEST crybaby!

*Online*
-How much time do you spend online?: Lately, A LOT!
-Who are your best friends?: hmmm.. Ika, Mocha, Rachel, Nikki's, Bernice, Dustin, Ten, & Paolo!
-Favorite Website: myspace.com.. hahaha.
-Have you ever met anyone in real life?: Yes
-If you could date anyone you know online, who would it be?: NO ONE..
-Do you buy things online?: Books.. for school!

*Favorites*
-Favorite day of the week: Friday
-Favorite movies: Now & Then, My Father the Hero, A Little Princess, The Lizzie McGuire Movie, The Debut, Sandlot, Pirates of the Caribbean, Mean Girls, and a lot more..
-Favorite actors: George Clooney, Brad Pitt
-Favorite actresses: Drew Barrymore, Julia Roberts
-Favorite song(s): Because of You, Screaming Infidelities, Only One, On the Way Down, Pieces of Me, Hands Down, and a lot more...
-Favorite music groups: Too many to name
-Favorite music singers: Too many to name
-Favorite holiday: Christmas of course!! =)
-Favorite season: Autumn
-Favorite colors: Blue & Green

*When you hear ___ you think of..*
-Bread: pan de sal
-Silver: Moon
-Baseball: Derek Jeter
-Dog: MOKA!
-Feet: Paolo & Pat
-Warm apple pie: American Pie
-Socks: Toes
-Fish: Tilapia
-Clown: Grind
-Bologna: 1st grade
-Giant Eagle: Bank of America
-A nun: St. Brendan
-The number 69: My sister..
-School: FRIENDS

*Relationships*
-What is your sexual preference?: Boys
-Boyfriend/girlfriend's name: Paolo
-Crush: none
-Where does that special someone live?: Burbank
-Things you like in the opposite sex: Their ability to keep me happy, their sense of humor, how they treat their mom & their family, and having an appetite just as big as mine!
-Are you a virgin: Who wants to know? Ask me. lol..
-Which is more important- personality or looks? Well, when you meet someone and you dont know anything about them, the first thing you are gonna notice is how they look and based upon the judgment you make, you choose to talk to them or not. Then you find out if they are really cool, or just BLAND. But in a relationship, I think its 20% looks, and 80% personality.

*Creative Q's*
-If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing?: Getting my car fixed
-Would you ever share your heart completely with someone else?: Yeah of course...
-Have you ever written on a mirror?: Yeah.. haha
-Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed : My bed!
-Name one person whose changed your life for the better: My ate, Miguel, Paolo, Mocha!
-What can someone do to you that would turn you on fully - physically or mentally - or both?: Doing something they love in full passion.. Like playing the piano.. =p
-What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood your in?: My brother!!

*Numbers*
-Number of times I have been in love: 2
-Number of hearts I have broken: 0
-Number of times MY heart's been broken: 1 =(
-Number of drugs taken illegally: uhhh.. haha i dunno?
-Number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: 15
-Number of people from high school that I stayed in contact with: I am still in high school..
-Number of piercings: 8.. haha
-Number of tattoos: 0 ...
-Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 6 times.. Asian newspapers though.
-Number of scars on my body: 4 .. I think
-Number of scars on my heart: 2
-Number of people that have made me scared of what they could do to me physically: A lot
-Number of things in my past that I regret: 5
-Number of times I have wondered why I took the time to take this survey: 3


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Seven Deadly Sins
ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? Paolo
2. What is your weapon of choice? Knife.. haha
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? Yes
4. How about of the same sex? Yes
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? My dad
6. What is your pet peeve? People that dont listen
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I get over everything pretty easily cuz I HATE DRAMA, but I wont forget what happened..

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a while? MY SUMMER READING!
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 5:30 pm
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: My dad who is in the Philippines
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? I was sleeping
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? Yes
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? 0.

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Orangina
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? DARK meat, fa sho
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? 1 liter
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? No
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? Yeah sometimes.. But I am not so insecure that I dont eat or throw up.. I eat whatever I want, when I want
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? Sweets! Only spicy food - Hot Cheetos
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? EWW.. no.

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? uhhh...
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? uhhh...
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Yeah.. ahahah.
4. Have you "done it"? Done what????
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? Eyes & hands
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? No
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? No

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? 1
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? Target
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Give some to my parents, and put the rest in a bank!
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? Rich
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Maybe
6. Have you ever stolen anything? Yeah.. Boo to me!
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? 0

PRIDE
1. What's one thing you have done that you're most proud of? Getting a job and keeping it for a month!!
2. What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of? Honor roll at St. Brendan
3. What's thing you would like to accomplish in your life? Graduate, get married, have kids, and live in a nice, house with enough..
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? Sometimes.. depends on the situation
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? No
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? Yeah.. =/
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? I woke up BEFORE noon, showered, cleaned my room, cleaned my sister's room, did the laundry, fold it, feed Moka, and go online.

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? CAR
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? I dunno... Jessica Alba?
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Jessica Alba
4. Have you ever been cheated? Yes
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? Of course!! All the time. I want a cute nose, skinnier arms, a flat tummy, more angular facial features, and the list goes on...
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? Courage
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? No
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Lust...

Posted by Camille at 2:21 AM | Permalink | Comments

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DALE!! [ my cousin ]

. i just finished showering. i woke up about an hour ago. =/

. the past few days have been full of the same nothing's.

. on tuesday i didnt do much. i was online the whole day.. talked to april, of course.. i dunno what else..

. yesterday i woke up too late to go visit bernice.. who btw, is on her way to the airport as we speak. =( so dustin came over and we watched pieces of APRIL with my ate. after the movie, we all went into the kitchen and tried to cook. dustin cooked rice, i did dishes, and my ate made the dumplings. then paolo came over and he hung out with us. then we all had dinner. it was yummy! except for the sauce that my sister put together.. it was soo random! so dustin and my ate watched newlyweds and ashlee simpson thanks to tivo! then paolo and i hung out.. damien came.. after the shows were done, dustin left.. and paolo stayed till 10:30.. then i watched newlyweds and ashlee simpson.. and then i talked to paolo.. =)
                 - i didnt talk to april the WHOLE day! however, i did get a text from her and it sounded like she was having fun at the beach. =) tomorrow is tennis friday.. yay-UH!
                 - thanks to my cuzin dustin for coming over and hanging out with me and my ate the whole day. i hope you had fun. come again, gay!
                 - and of course, thanks to paolo for visiting me on his day off.. for driving all the way down to LA.. i love you!

. i guess that's all. no plans for today... =/ *sigh* oh well..

. all you party people, incentives is having a party on august 11.. dont know where yet, but keep that date open!

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some eye candy for all of you..
thank you bernice!


mi mejor's 17th bday lunch @ island's...
mel, neece, nikz, ma, me, rj, tin, & chel =)

prom '04

bernice and i.


table people... [ w/o linds! ]
nikki, mel, chel, trina, neece, erika, tin, me, & rj
 
eagle rock's aloha dance '04

bernice, me, mi mejor, geela, & jochebed.


geela, ma, me, marlon, bernice.


bernice, me, & nikki.. we rocked those shirts!


ma, ten, me


*m.m.a* for life!! nikz & camz..

 
t-shirt crew... again!


our dance picture...
nikki, me, neece / ten, joch, & geela


mary's day '04..
neece, me, nikki, linds


class day '04. [ table people w/o mel ]
tin, neece, me, rj, linds, & nikki /
trina, chel, & erika.


my sisters!! mocha, rj, ma, & nikki..


my other sister, bernice!

burny.. i am gonna miss you so much when you are in the philippines. two weeks is so long! =( while you're there, dont forget that you have 382908 people over here missing you. enjoy and be good.. i love you.. i need you. neecey, i.. love you. i do.. need you!! [[ i get to see you today! woohoo! funnel cake! ]]

Posted by Camille at 4:35 AM | Permalink | Comments

. so i am online right now.. loser status! i am talking to kracie kris right now! aww.. he is so0o cool. i miss him. but when he comes back, PARTAAAAY!!

. i am also talking to the COOOLEST jb jason. he is the cure to my boredom.. i hope! btw, he is april's favorite.. and april is his favorite. =( anyway, friday is FUNDAY! woohoo! i love you jason!

Posted by Camille at 2:34 AM | Permalink | Comments

. so i think it's time i blog about my wonderful day!!

. hmm.. i woke up at 2.. yeah.. last night i cried my heart out.. i mean, i cried till there were no more tears left to cry.. but i guess everything is ok now.. i hope!! so... i went online and talked to april! we were online forever and ever.. but it was fun! i love my long lost so much. =)

. i didnt do anything else today. i talked to mocha!! made collages online.. yeah myspace! yeah, i am a loser! anyway..

. paolo still hasn't called.. and guess what i'm doing?? talking to... april and rj! the only people who keep me company every day/night. thanks guys!

. wow this was pointless.. haha. oh well.

Posted by Camille at 11:56 PM | Permalink | Comments

thanks neece!! knott's...

me, bnut, manny, & randy!



me and my sole mate, geela!!

 
burny, geela, & randers!


geela, randy, manny, danny, & lisa!!


ejay, ten, lisa, & danny! 

more pictures

Posted by Camille at 9:45 PM | Permalink | Comments

. oh man.. the joys of chatting online...

. rj and i LOVE food! =)

. and april and i are...
april: mean girls. partner in crime -=)
april: we're shady and we dont care.

. i absolutely love it!!

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. love is like a... snake. [[ just hear me out. ]] it can bite you in the ass and it can even kill. however, not many know that snakes can comfort and keep you happy.. in some weird way. but love is more than that. i don't know where i am going with this.. but without love, where would i be? i love you.

. thank you my long lost april and best friend rachel for listening to me cry and bitch.. and you know i am always here to listen to you too! dont stress, april. HAPPY THOUGHTS!

Because of you - Keith Martin
This is a song called because of you...written because of you...here we go
If ever you wondered if you touched my soul, yes you do
Since I met you I'm not the same
You bring life to everything I do
Just the way you say hello
With one touch I can't let go
Never thought I'd fall in love with you...
 
Because of you, my life has changed, thank you for the love and joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame,
I'll tell the world it's because of
 
Sometimes I get lonely and all I gotta do is think of you
You captured something inside of me
You make all of my dreams come true
It's not enough that you love me for me
You reached inside and touched me eternally
I love you best explains how I feel for you...
 
Because of you, my life has changed, thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame,
I'll tell the world it's because of you
 
The magic in your eyes
True love I can't deny
When you hold me
I just lose control
I want you to know that I'm never letting go
You mean so much to me
I want the world to see,It's because of you
 
Because of you, my life has changed, thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you, I feel no shame,
I'll tell the world it's because of you

I love you, baby!

Posted by Camille at 3:53 AM | Permalink | Comments

. i love my bnut! haha. you make me laugh.

brendan: seals sleep only one and a half minutes at a time
me: false
brendan: thats true
brendan: you suck
brendan: lol
me: haha
brendan: see...you cant be a seal...cause you end up sleeping for a whole day

. go to snapple.com and play!

. brendan, you were and always will be my lucky star!!

Posted by Camille at 10:23 PM | Permalink | Comments

. so yesterday i woke up at 6 in the morning, cuz april texted me. she fell asleep on me the night before, but its all good. my mom came and she did some laundry, cleaned the house, and gave me money! then i cleaned a little more.. then paolo called and asked if i wanted to go to huntington beach, so i said yeah. its not like DUSTIN ever called me to let me know about miniature golfing.. so its ok. so i got ready.. and he came around 5. we went to joyce/bg's house and we hung out with matt, pat, and gerrier for a bit. then her friend jen came and so did all her other homies. we went to el gran burrito and got food and headed to huntington beach. it was traffic and it took us a while to get there. when we did get there, there were no more firepits, so bg's friends asked these two random white guys if we could share and they said yeah. so we put the towels down and we ate. we hung out. pat, gerrier and i walked in the water for a little and we came back. then the two white guys had friends come and they were looking at us like, wtf? haha, so everyone looked for another firepit. paolo was STARVING, so we walked like a mile down and found a dairy queen. we walked back and it was almost 10 which meant, no more partying on the beach. we met up with everyone including pat with burned hands! haha.. so we headed back to LA. we went to PALMS thai restaurant and it was just me, paolo, pat, bg, matt, gerrier, and jen. by the time we got there it was midnight and it was jen's birthday! they had karaoke or something. like they had elvis, this asian guy with a guitar, and this asian lady. great entertainment. we got our food. ate, talked, LAUGHED.. fun stuff. then we left and went to bg's for a few minutes.. then paolo took me home. a good day.. spent it with the one i love! =)
 
. today i woke up cuz my sister wanted me to watch my big fat greek wedding with her. we watched it. watched britney's miami concert. then we cooked breakfast. then she gave me a makeover. ahahaha. i look so0o gay. went online.. boredom KILLS. =/ now i am sitting here.. like a loser. haha. booo.

. anywho, i am talking to LISA right now.. and we are trying to plan an outing with everyone.. =)

. oh yeah, ian is not dark!

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edited at 12:35 am

. today was a LAZY day. i seriously thought i was gonna go out today. i thought i was gonna party hardy!! but nope.. my prince charming didn't come save me today. *sigh* =/ so i slept in.. went online. showered... talked to my friend. =) did LOTS of laundry. cleaned.. went online again.. and i am online right now!! i am talking to kaycee kay, dustin, eric, rj, and april. what fun! it's friday! wooohoo.. 

. april mcfarland is my long lost... everything. haha. she is my happy thoughts. =) i think about her all the time. LoL. she makes me laugh so hard my side hurts. 
 
april: .. cammy we're going to hell.
me: hahah i know. its ok. at least.. ummm...
april: at least we have each other. 

. haha we are even gonna become nurses together. =) anyway, april, you are too funny for words. one more year, baby! i really cant wait. we are gonna have the time of our lives.. WITH EACH OTHER! we should keep our relationship more on the DL so paolo and jason don't get jealous. LoL. jk.. let's visit the happiest place on earth and have nothing but HAPPY THOUGHTS! our place to be. THANK YOU SO MUCH FRIENDSTER! haha i love you, weirdo! 
 
. i have a new template.. the john mayer one was way too PINK! hope you guys like this one! i do! ok well.. thats all for now.. till next time!

Posted by Camille at 10:57 PM | Permalink | Comments

. So, things are definitely getting better!

. The night I couldn't sleep.. Guess who came to my rescue? My one and only Prince Charming.. PAOLO! Yeah, he called me. I didn't even tell him to. He called me cuz HE couldn't sleep, and we talked! I love him! =)

. On Wednesday, I stayed home.. Cleaned, went online. The usual! Haha. I wore the new dress I got ALL DAY.. Even though I knew I wasn't gonna go anywhere. It was just so comfortable and so pretty! Damien gave me all this Kevin Lyttle stuff that Kevin Lyttle himself gave to Damien.. So nice of him. =) So my ate came home and we decided to eat out for dinner. But Paolo was on his way, so we decided to wait. He never answered his phone, though. So he came, and he isn't that hungry.. So we hang out for a little and we all leave. We should have gone with my sister, though cuz B2K ate at the sushi place they were at! Anyway, Paolo and I go to Burbank... We buy cookie dough.. Buy In-N-Out. Go back to Paolo's. Eat.. Bake cookies. Eat. Watch tv. Try to braid his hair.. A failure. =/ Then he takes me home! Then we talk for a little.. and I sleep!

. Today I woke up when my ate called.. Talked to my Bernice! Wooohoo. Talked to Mocha for a little. Then Andre came over and I attempted to braid his hair. Failure! I can't braid short hair! So I called Arlyn for a favor and I talked to her for a little. Then I straightened Andre's hair. Haha.. Then he took me to Paolo's. We watched Grind with Tim and had grilled cheese sandwiches! Yum. Then Paolo and I headed to Providence. The first people I saw were Nicole and Jill. Haha.. =) Went inside and EVERYONE was there! Janelle, Eric, Leslie, Jasmine, the whole v-ball team, parents, and of course, KAYCEE KAY! I came to see her. It was fun. Paolo and I wanted the games.. Then IMMAC played and I got to talk to my good ol' pal Eric. It was cool! Then after IMMAC kicked ass, and the other side of the gym was free, Paolo and I played. WE BE PROS, YO! Haha, jk. But it was a fun workout. Then we left and went to Hollywood Video. Nothing. =( Boo. Went back to Paolo's. Watched tv. Ate!! YUM.. =) Baked cookies. Ate them with ice cream, and watched A Man Apart. Great Vin Diesel movie! Then he took me home. And here I am.. Talking to Gavin, Wong, and RJ the great! I am not tired. =/ But I have to get up alll EARLY tomorrow!! Oh well. I am excited. I am gonna end this now. Goodnight. =)

Posted by Camille at 2:02 AM | Permalink | Comments

i cant sleep... =/ someone save me.

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. so things are looking up.. i mean, last night i think i was being VERY emotional.

. i slept really late last night [4 am!] cuz all i did was cry.. stupid, yeah i know.. but thanks to my very own oprah, DANIELLEEE!! i love you girl..  and thanks to my good friend RJ for staying up with me and talking to me! =)

.  so i woke up at 3 today.. i talked to rachel. then i went online.. i ate, then did dishes. damien cooked steak.. and burned his lip! with the flying oil.. and today he went to record a song with kevin lyttle.. and he was all, now kevin is gonna think i have herpes. haha. that was so0o funny. i showered, my ate came home, and we ate. then we watched tv.. and then we went to the grove. went to gap. she got a gift card. then we went to a&f... she went shopping! =/ then we went and got sunglasses. mine are so0o gay! then we went to bath and body. got some stuff.. then we went to reference.. she got stuff and i got this green and brown tube dress.. so cute! 

.then we went back home.. and i talked to MOCHA!! oh man. i have missed her so0o much. but we talked and it was so0o cool. i missed you partner in crime... haha. ;) then i went online..
            ..... and guess what?? I HAVE A NEW FRIEND!!! yeah.. come meet her.. we have always known each other.. but now we are officially cool. =) 

. i am waiting for paolo to finish eating so we can talk.. and on thursday we are going to provi to watch kaycee and immac play v-ball!! thats all for now..

. today is a new day. =)

. i want the ashlee simpson cd.. someone burn it for me.. umm.. danielle!!! haha.. =p

Posted by Camille at 11:40 PM | Permalink | Comments

yep, i am MISERABLE..
- why, you might ask.. well, let me tell you. there are hundreds of reasons why i am miserable and who knows.. YOU could be one of the reasons. and no, it's not like that. no ONE person makes me miserable, but it's what they DO that gets me all down in the dumps.
- i fuck up all the time... who doesn't? i am only human, for God's sake. [ i am not using the Lord's name in vain. ] but people have these standards and if you don't meet them, you automatically become this horrible creature that isn't even worthy enough to be talked to, let alone, be in their presence. i don't think i have become this creature... YET.
- however, i DID fuck up. a LOT, i might add. not just this past week, but in the past in general. i don't know what compels me to do the dumb shit i do, but hey, it happens.
- let this puclic outcry be a sign.. a sign of what? you'll see..
- everything i have and cherish is slowly slipping form my grasp and i don't know how or if i will ever get it back.. back to me.
- i have come to the realization that nothing's perfect. i am sure you have all come to realize that... i am the most distant thing from ever being close to perfect - i am a bad daughter, a bad sister, a really bad girlfriend who isn't "good enough" for my boyfriend, and apparently, a horrible friend.
- i am sorry to those i have hurt in the past. you may or may not forgive me.. and whatever you decide to do, just know that i truly am sorry.. and to those who have hurt me.. you are all forgiven. whatever damage was done is done. it's all in the past where it belongs.
- thank you to those people who are still by my side. i don't know why or how you are still here. it surprises me. but thanks... i guess that's all. goodbye for now.

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. ok... so i guess you can say this past weekend has been CRAZY..
 
. on friday i woke up.. and i got ready. dustin, ika, and ian came and picked me up. we took ika to tiffanee's. then we went to brendan's. we waited for his brother and sister and then we went to dockweiler beach. big mistake. whatever. we played in the sand and caught sand crabs. we all got dark too. except ian cuz he is already dark. JK iana!! so we went back to bren's and showered.. and heather and kuya melvin were there. we talked to them and hung out for a little. then we bought elote [sp.?] and we went to popeye's to buy chicken. we headed to the luau and already, there was slight tension. said hi to everyone.. hung out.. i dunno. drama. and honestly, i can say i am at fault. yeah, i fucked up and i am sorry. i don't know what else to say to those i hurt. so after all of that, i drove ian and dustin to my house. we talked to my sister and then she left. we hung out and talked.. ate.. contemplated. then they left and i talked to heather. oh man, i really love her. and no, not in a lesbian way. she is like another big sister, full of advice. talked to bren a little.. then i talked to paolo.. i couldn't sleep the whole night. i felt really bad for the whole day.. =/
 
. i didn't wake up till paolo called me around 3 to tell me to get ready.. i showered and stuff.. then got ready to go to the Maroon 5/John Mayer concert.. paolo came around 5 with rosetti and tim and we headed to irvine.. it was so0o traffic and we got there around 6:30.. we got there and parked.. walked inside the verizon amphitheater. we bought food.. tim and rosetti paid $32 for 2 cheeseburgers, fries, and 2 large sodas. paolo and i paid $25 for the same thing, except we had regular sodas.. expensive!! then we went to our seats.. not THAT bad.. ate.. maroon 5 came on and they rocked the place. adam levine is so0 sexy! haha. after that, there was an intermission and i checked my phone and gail texted to tell me she was there too. haha so i called the nerd and after 5 minutes of hand waving and looking through the crowds, we finally found each other! awww i haven't seen my gail-ee in so0 long. so we talked for a couple of minutes and she went back to her seat and then JOHN freakin MAYER came on! i knew lyrics to almost every song.. except like 2 or 3.. dope shiet dude. he rocks too! it was a lot of fun!! after that, we headed to paolo's. i ate pizza, a waffle, and some cookies that paolo baked. it was yummy. around 2:30 he took me home.. he came in for a little and then he left. then i slept.... FUN DAY!! =)
 
. my ate woke me up at 11 and told me to get ready cuz we were going to malibu. i honestly didn't wanna go cuz i was so0o tired. but i got up and got my stuff ready. around 12:30, we headed over there with damien and moka. we got to damien's and there were people there already. among those people were michael vartan's mom and his stepdad, and mike jones? some famous guy i think.. we waited for food.. and my ate and i sunbathed in the backyard for a little. talked to rachel.. then we ate.. damien's friends, hire and margie came. then we all went swimming.. with crazy moka! haha.. then we showered and everyone was gone.. we looked at the house damien's mom was building.. then we left.. we went to coldstone's near the house in culver.. near tiffanee's... =/ we waited in line for half an hour.. and i got my coffee ice cream with brownies and a heath bar.. yummy! we ate.. then we went home.. i talked to paolo for a little.. i read a little.. then i tried to sleep.. but i felt like everything wasn't.. settled... =?
 
. i woke up at 10:30 to ian and brendan with their wake up call.. haha they asked if i was hungry and around 10:45, ian and brendan came over with tacos from jack in the crack!! yumm.. we ate and talked. then we cooked the eggs i had to cook.. they messed up everything! hahah jk.. i cleaned a little while they hid from me. what bozos! jk.. we went online.. watched tv.. talked. and then around 2:15 they left.. and poor brendan got a ticket!! sorry.. haha. and i am listening to the slow jam cd bren brought.. from heather! wooohoo. i'm lovin' it. don't have any plans for today.. no more sunbathing.. i am so0o dark.. maybe tomorrow!
 
. i miss SOME kultura people.. sexy man.. thanks for the tag! i miss you.. wawa.. i miss you muchos! tml.. =) my tall one.. let's chismiss... and some other people... i miss you tooo. you KNOW who you are!!

. i also miss my sisters who are all the way in the philippines. thanks for that message, trysh.. i love you guys!

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nice song... =)
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Sheryl Crow - The First Cut Is The Deepest

I would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and he's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky hhe's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me he's worst
but when it comes to being loved he's first
that's how I know
The first cut is the deepest
I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
 
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i am talking to RJ right now.. thanks for trying to put me to sleep. you are a DORK! hahaha.. that's right. =p

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. new template guys. i am just preparing for the JOHN MAYER CONCERT on saturday!! w0ot wo0t! 
 
. so the past few days have been very exciting..  =) 
  
. on monday.. i was sitting with my sister, watching tv and talking.. and paolo calls me. its like 8:30 and he is already off work and he wants to go do something. so i get ready.. he picks me up. talks to my sister. then we leave and go to burbank. we think of something to do.. so he changes.. we go to hollywood video and there is nothing good to rent. then we got wienershnizel.. [i dont think thats how you spell it!!] went back to paolo's. watched who wants to marry my dad and csi. we hang out for a little.. tim comes home. hang out for a little.. then around 1:30 he takes me home.. then we talk on the phone a little.. then i sleep!! 
  
. i dont think i did anything on tuesday. i sunbathed a little. read. ate. slept. went online.. =? talked to paolo.. 
  
. wednesday.. woke up. got ready. paolo came around 11:20. went to his house. he got his stuff ready. then around 12:30 we left and went to pat's house. rachel was already there... and matt and joyce were there too. we hung out. i haven't seen rachel in FOREVER so we hung out and talked. listened to music and stuff.. then jessi, vanessa, april, and her cousin, grace, came. we waited for pj.. and then we waited for david.. so pat and rachel rode with paolo and i. jessi drove vanessa and david, and pj took grace and april. we headed to zuma.. geeeeeeez.. it was SCORCHING hot! no joke. the ride there was lots of fun. hahaha. we got there around 2. put sunblock on. then we went in the water. we played all day.. it was a lot of fun! i even got a little darker. we all rinsed off.. but paolo and i had shampoo and conditioner. not that anyone cares. haha. then we went to jack in the box in agoura hills. ate, talked. lots of fun.. then pj and i walked to island's and with his employee discount, i got a chocolate lava for $2.83!!! wooohooo! we said our goodbyes.. then paolo and i headed home. went to his house. hung out.. rested. watched freaky friday.. then he took me home around 1... then we talked for a little. great day!!! =)   
 
. today i woke up around 10:30 to moka barking, the doorbell, and my phone ringing... ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!! =/ i went to the door first and it was like, LA county something asking for our dog permit. i woke damien up.. he talked to the guy. i went to my phone and ian was calling for like the 328908th time.. jk.. not that many. but like, the 4th. he said he was outside with brendan. so i cleaned up a little and walked outside. they were parked.. they came in. i got ready in like 10 minutes while they played with moka ON MY BED. ewwwwwww.. haha.. and then we left. we went to murphy. said hi to people.. talked to dustin for a little. we left and went to bren's house in hawthorne. hung out there. had some pineapple. yum! then we went to carson for jolibee... haha. yum yum! peach mango pie!! then we called dustin and told him to meet us up with ika.. then we went to ika's house.. said hi to eryne and tito ed. hung out.. then we left and bren let me drive to dustin's!! wooohooo! then we went to marina del rey and climbed rocks and tried to catch crabs. fun stuff. it was so0o hot though! =/ then we left and went to ucla to pick up heather.. bren and i went down. said hi.. she was still working though. awww.. i love her! she is so0o pretty. =) then we hung out with ika and dus in our cars.. then bren let me drive all the way to  7-11 near murphy.. wooohooo. traffic sucked like a biotch though! we got slurpee.. dus got food.. i got pretzels.. so did ika.. we ate and hung out for a little.. said bye.. then dus took ika and ian home.. bren took me home. aww.. fun stuff. slow jams rock! i want a copy of that CD, bnut! i showered.. and i just got off the phone with ika.. luau tomorrow? beach? i dunno..

-well, that's all.. another adventure today. a great one, i might add. even though we were not a complete junkie family, i had mucho fun! thanks guys.. ok.. well time to eat!! =)

--added at 9:31 pm--

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. this is gonna be a LONG one!

. on saturday i woke up bright and early and waited till ericka picked me up. we heaaded over to tiffanee's house where she, lisa, danny, dustin, ian, pat, and manny were. we hung out for a little.. went to ralph's to get tickets. then brendan and jeff came. we hung out some more and then ten, ej and randy came.
- we got into our cars and headed to knott's!! =) we got there and it was already very hot. randy and i rode with tiffanee and jeff.. ika, lisa, and danny rode with dustin.. and pat, manny, ej, ten, and ian rode with brendan. crazy drivers yo! we got there and parked next to each other.. haha.. all the way at the end and we walked in like ika says, an asian gang!! we got there and met geela, bernice, and cristhelle{sp?}.
- then we went in.. took pictures.. at one point or another, we were all seperated.. =/ however, we would somehow reunite and stuff.
- i was with ika, dus, danny, lisa, tiff, jeff, and my ride partner, brendan, most of the time. thanks patnah! ika and i waited in line with everyone for boomerang, but we didn't ride.. pussies!! jk.. i rode supreme scream 3 times [once with lisa, danny, and bnut. once with some random white lady. and the last time with manny boy and randy!!], ghostrider twice [once during the day with randy, and once at night with my manny!], and the log ride [with ika and dus.. talk about 3rd wheel! haha. jk guys.]
- the whole trip was ok. i had fun, but there was SOME drama and it kinda killed my day. however, my awesome friends made up for it.. and the junkie day out was a success cuz all 11 of us were there! =) plus the other homies came and it was fun taking pictures, walking around together, being REALLY hot, getting sunburned, refilling our souvenir cups, sharing drinks with all 17 of us, laughing at each other, and just being with friends.. =) plus.. FUNNEL CAKE! we got TWO!! plus, when manny and i were stuck watching the bags, which we volunteered to do, we found $20 and bought a large pizza and ate it! and even though i spent a bajillion dollars on the dumb game trying to get a care bear, it was fun being with ika and dus, and tinny and jeff and laughing at each other.. aww. good times guys. plus, in both lines for ghostrider, we totally bonded and sweat in that building for like an hour each time..
- afterwards, i rode with tiffanee and jeff and we went back to her house.. met up with everyone and said bye.. no more roscoe's!! =/ then brendan took me home before 1:30! =) thanks bnut..
- i got home. talked to paolo for a little. then ate and her friends came and i slept..

. yesterday i woke up around 1:00 and i watched tv with my ate. we watched this really funny movie called, just looking. then damien's friends came over and they bbq'd. then we watched wildboyz... then i read my summer reading books a little.. and then i talked to paolo!! then zzZzZZzz..

. today i woke up around 11:30 when paolo called and told me he was gonna come over. so he came before 1 and we started on his hair. yeah, sorry it didnt turn out the way you wanted baby, but your hair is too short still. and i totally ripped the hair out of his head and i felt so bad. then he left.. and then i talked to ika. then i went online and talked to andre and bernice! then my good ol' buddy pal, rj. =) then i cooked... and then i sunbathed for an hour. showered.. then my sister came home. and we cooked...

- when i was braiding paolo's hair, we were listening to the radio online and this song came on.. and this is for him.. =)
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I Promise - Stacie Orrico

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
I promise

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why does it hurt so much? I dont understand.. I thought it was supposed to be carefree and blissful...

..................

=?

actually, I DO understand. it is all the drama and the rough times and getting through it all that makes it worthwhile. that's why I love you.

I know you aren't ready to trust me and I understand. I screwed up in the past.. but I learned from my mistake. I am sorry. you know how much you mean to me and I wouldn't f__k it up..

I love you from the bottom of my heart, Francis Paolo Sanchez.

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Pieces of Me - Ashlee Simpson

On a Monday I am waiting
Tuesday I am fading
And By Wednesday I can’t sleep
Then the phone rings I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
I see you’ve come to rescue me

Fall, with you I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath
I hope it lasts

It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody and messy
I get restless and it’s senseless
And you never seem to care
When I’m angry you listen
When you’re happy it’s a mission
And you won’t stop till I’m there

Fall, sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom crash
You’re all I have

It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know?
Everything I’m about to say
Am I that obvious?
And if it’s written on my face
I hope it never goes away

On a Monday I am waiting
By Tuesday I am fading
Into your arms
So I can breathe

It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

dedicated to my very special someone! =) i Love you baby!

knott's... here we come!!!

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R.I.P. Gladys Marcos

. wow... i am having so0o much fun here at my ate's house. i LOOOOVE it here!

. so on monday i went with my ate, her dad, and damien to go look for a bbq for their backyard. we found a really cool one and damien invited all his friends to come eat.. so my sister and i made little finger foods and some other yummy stuff while damien bbq'd carne asada. it was yummy. then ika and dustin came over. then we watched the goonies with my sister and then we hung out. after they left, my sister and i cleaned up.. then i talked to paolo! what a fun day.

. yesterday i stayed in bed and slept.. then damien and i went to go look at my car. it needs to be taken to a shop. then we picked up my ate and headed over to malibu. we ate dinner at his mom's and then we took moka [damien's dog!] back with us. then we got back home and looked at stuff.. talked to mi mejor. my mom came and brought food.. then she left. then i got a phone call from paolo and our convo went like this...

paolo: hi.. i have a surprise for you.
me: really? what?? [i thought he cut his hair!!]
paolo: come outside...
me: yeah right. you're not outside.

so i went outside and lo and behold, he was there.. i ran and gave him a hug. he went inside and he said hi. then we hung out for a little. i ate. of course! then we went outside and hung out. then we went in his car and listened to like 3 john mayer albums. we are getting ready for his concert next saturday in anaheim wo0ot w0ot.. =) then he left around 1:30. aww.. i love him so much. he is the best boyfriend. thanks honey!

. today was a lazy day.. i woke up and moka was asleep at my feet. i showered.. ate.. talked to my twin star... talked to mocha .. and now i am just relaxing..

- i miss my table people.. and miller. hahah. =)
- i miss volleyball. i wish i was playing.
- i miss my dad, brother, and sisters.
- i miss my paoLo...
- i miss SOME kultura people.
- i miss my two sisters.. who are tooo busy for me now. yeah that's you rachel and nikki!

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. well, i guess i will be having more time to blog now.. seeing that i have nothing else to do!

. summer has been so0o much fun. i have so much more freedom (even without my car!) and i get to relax and hang out. nothing much has been going on.. i stayed at mocha's last week and we had so0o much fun together.. partying all day and all night. oh yeah! hahah. jk.. but thanks for the good times!!! =p we had the best time together. oh man. i am going back there!!! watch out mocha! let's drive marty's car again! hahah jk... love you sister!

. this week, i have been staying at my sister's new house.. she and her boyfriend got this cute house and i now live in the guest bedroom. i love it here!

. so this weekend was good for me.. let's start with friday.. i went with my sister to her work.. at a preschool in marina del rey.. helped out. hung out. then we went back to her house and then ika and tiffanee picked me up and we headed to glendale for our junkie girls day out!! three musketeers!!! we met ten and lisa at yosemite park.. then we had an early dinner at ichiban.. oh man. we talked forever and ever and had a lot of fun. =) i miss my girls! then we went to the mall. lisa got her nose pierced! =o looks really good though! and tiff got her ear pierced. then we walked around. hung out. got matching rings. then we met up with people. walked around some more. then dustin came. hung out with him.. then tiffanee, ericka, and i left. they took me to my sister's. my sister went out so i went online for a little, watched tv, and just like i do every night, i talked to my baby! =) then i went to sleep. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIM!!
>..junkie girls.. i missed you! esp. you ericka! you nerd. no more drama. twin power! LoL...<

. saturday morning paolo called me and told me joanna wasn't gonna do his hair so he picked me up and we went back to his house. we ate and hung out for a little, and at 12 he went to work. i cleaned a little and then i got ready for the party. tim came and we got some food. we ate and his mom came home. watched tv. gerrier and kris came and they ate. i teased kris' hair a little.. haha.. then they left... and then i did paolo's hair. we got ready and headed to the incentives party [Shake Your A$$ Party] in pacoima. we got there and no one was there. but i found out i was gonna be helping out. i became "marker girl." i got to mark everyone who paid. the party was successful and the dj's rocked. it was a lot of fun and i saw everyone!! it was hard work cleaning up after though. then paolo and i got food.. ate.. went home. HAPPY TWO MONTHS BABY! =)

. today i went with my sister and damien to malibu to visit damien's mom, lynn. talk about CRIBS! geeebers. the house was HUGE and really nice. we hung out there and ate. then we went to this beach thing that wasn't happening and then we went to his godmom's house in malibu canyon. it was gorgeous and it was a lot of fun. but my sister and i felt out of place.. only colored people there ya know? we saw jared leto and two other actors, one was eric idle!! the fireworks show was great! the fireworks WOWED me just like paolo does. =) we left and we went home.. then i went online and talked to my tin and bernice! aww.. table people. i miss you guys! then i talked to paolo. awww.. he is the best!! i am feeling kinda blah, but hopefully this "blah" goes away! well, that's all for now.. update later!

. don't forget to party hardy and EAT while you're at it! oh yeah, let's be DRAMA-FREE this summer and stop talking shit!

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